Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Nursing FAIL!
I feel like I have a lot to type tonight so I am going to start here and see where it takes me...
Nursing, I must be born to fail at it!!
First of all... when I was prego I was full blown prepared to breast feed. I didn't even buy one bottle because Hey I'm not going to use them, I am the bottle! I got my breast pump all ready to go and even though Bill didn't think I could do it I was set in stone that I was! I knew it was going to be hard, I knew it was going to take commitment but I was dedicated! Done and done!!
Well... Brynn was born.. and her first night of life they realized she was jaundiced and without asking me gave her formula... fine fine, I understand she needs it. My milk came in by the 3rd day but already everytime I nursed her the nurses would "supplement"..... She was little needed to gain and needed to get the jaundice out.... I'm convincing myself..
But by the time we got home the damage was already done. She would nurse and then we would supplement. My supple never had a chance! She wasn't gaining weight.. we tried to work on my milk supple but it just wasn't increasing so we had to increase her formula intake. I TRIED everything, I mean it! I nursed her for hours and she was so upset... I ate oatmeal, I drank beers, I took fenugreek, I drank water, saw a LC...
I hate when I read the breast milk is best and I feel like I failed because I couldn't do it... I wanted to soo bad! I feel like I missed out on the cuddle time when u are nursing.. because usually when I nursed Brynn would just cry knowing that the faster easier bottle would be coming...
2nd of all, nursing school... what a nightmare! I think I would be a awesome nurse and I see RN and I think how come she made it through nursing school and I didnt? I'm smart but I had my head up my ass back then... is it too late?
Nursing, I must be born to fail at it!!
First of all... when I was prego I was full blown prepared to breast feed. I didn't even buy one bottle because Hey I'm not going to use them, I am the bottle! I got my breast pump all ready to go and even though Bill didn't think I could do it I was set in stone that I was! I knew it was going to be hard, I knew it was going to take commitment but I was dedicated! Done and done!!
Well... Brynn was born.. and her first night of life they realized she was jaundiced and without asking me gave her formula... fine fine, I understand she needs it. My milk came in by the 3rd day but already everytime I nursed her the nurses would "supplement"..... She was little needed to gain and needed to get the jaundice out.... I'm convincing myself..
But by the time we got home the damage was already done. She would nurse and then we would supplement. My supple never had a chance! She wasn't gaining weight.. we tried to work on my milk supple but it just wasn't increasing so we had to increase her formula intake. I TRIED everything, I mean it! I nursed her for hours and she was so upset... I ate oatmeal, I drank beers, I took fenugreek, I drank water, saw a LC...
I hate when I read the breast milk is best and I feel like I failed because I couldn't do it... I wanted to soo bad! I feel like I missed out on the cuddle time when u are nursing.. because usually when I nursed Brynn would just cry knowing that the faster easier bottle would be coming...
2nd of all, nursing school... what a nightmare! I think I would be a awesome nurse and I see RN and I think how come she made it through nursing school and I didnt? I'm smart but I had my head up my ass back then... is it too late?
Friday, March 4, 2011
PCOS and so on
Well I have PCOS I was dx when I was 24 ish... I was trying to get pregnant, I took myself off BCP and didn't have a period for a long long long long long long time followed by a period for 3 months straight.. fun times, let me tell ya! So I went to a dr they said I had PCOS and to go back on BCP lose weight and it will be gone... um.... not that effin easy! So after a move and a year and alittle bit of research I went to a Repro Endo. Right away I was put on Metformin and away we went! After failed IUIs and an IVF tx I was told to go on BCP and lose weight (assholes)... but this time losing weight wasn't has hard.. I didn't carve sugars and carbs has much. I lost 15lbs and got pregnant on my own!
So baby is here and the weight came back. I'm not breastfeeding so I want back on Metformin! I'm going to an Endo 3/9/11 and once I get my rx I think I'm going to start tracking my weight loss. Right now I exercise 3x a week and I don't eat crappy but I crave sweets and carbs and I haven't lost any weight. Hmm.. I guess we will see!
So baby is here and the weight came back. I'm not breastfeeding so I want back on Metformin! I'm going to an Endo 3/9/11 and once I get my rx I think I'm going to start tracking my weight loss. Right now I exercise 3x a week and I don't eat crappy but I crave sweets and carbs and I haven't lost any weight. Hmm.. I guess we will see!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Sick Sack Suck!
Being sick... well sucks! But I never ever thought about being sick with a baby! You can't sleep in, you can't lounge on the couch... and when I cough, sneeze, or blow my nose Brynn cries! And the worst part is what if she gets my cold? That would be awful.. poor little thing!
And I don't call Brynn my littlest baby for no reason. At her full term birth she was 5lb 4oz! Can you say PEANUT!? And don't look at me, I didn't drink or smoke or do any crazy un-nutritional things... I had gestational diabetes for christ sake! They thought she was going to be a big baby... I still don't understand how she was so little... but even now she is a slow gainer. She is 7.5 months old and weighs about 14lbs... thats the normal size of a 3.5 month old? Her pedi isn't worried, he says she gains and is "on track just below the line" but that doesn't stop me from worrying!
In other news she started saying Dada this weekend. Melted Bill's heart! Babci and Opa say that she said mama today while they were watching her.. I can't wait to get my hands on her!
And I don't call Brynn my littlest baby for no reason. At her full term birth she was 5lb 4oz! Can you say PEANUT!? And don't look at me, I didn't drink or smoke or do any crazy un-nutritional things... I had gestational diabetes for christ sake! They thought she was going to be a big baby... I still don't understand how she was so little... but even now she is a slow gainer. She is 7.5 months old and weighs about 14lbs... thats the normal size of a 3.5 month old? Her pedi isn't worried, he says she gains and is "on track just below the line" but that doesn't stop me from worrying!
In other news she started saying Dada this weekend. Melted Bill's heart! Babci and Opa say that she said mama today while they were watching her.. I can't wait to get my hands on her!
Friday, February 25, 2011
Friday
It's raining... I'm probably the only one in New England that thinks this but I wish it was snowing! Snow is so pretty when its fresh and clean. We had about 5ft of snow (no joke) between Jan-Feb and I loved it!
Well.. baby is awake from her nap :)
Well.. baby is awake from her nap :)
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Saturday
Everyone is the house is napping. Brynn, Bill and even Mr. Bojangles... but thats not a real big shocker because Mr. Bojangles is also sleeping.
Today my mom and my Carl came to watch Brynn swim. Water babies is the cutest thing! And I hope that she really takes to swimming.... I picture her on a swim team and me, her proud mama, in the stands. But for now she loves to splash around while mommy or daddy holds her. Today Daddy went in the pool with her. He holds her so tight and half of her body is out of the water while when I go in with her I kept her in the water and I keep her away from my body. Daddy's are funny creatures... haha! He also hate to put her underwater, he almost refuses... doesn't want to make her cry. While I will put in head under and let her cry alittle... how else is she going to win the Olympics if she doesn't go underwater! :)
Today my mom and my Carl came to watch Brynn swim. Water babies is the cutest thing! And I hope that she really takes to swimming.... I picture her on a swim team and me, her proud mama, in the stands. But for now she loves to splash around while mommy or daddy holds her. Today Daddy went in the pool with her. He holds her so tight and half of her body is out of the water while when I go in with her I kept her in the water and I keep her away from my body. Daddy's are funny creatures... haha! He also hate to put her underwater, he almost refuses... doesn't want to make her cry. While I will put in head under and let her cry alittle... how else is she going to win the Olympics if she doesn't go underwater! :)
Friday, February 18, 2011
Intro
Hi, I'm Laura! ..... I guess let's start with the stats. Sorta like when I was a teenager in an AOL chat room, 28/f/WMass here! LOL, those were the days! Before myspace, facebook, before you could even put a "flatter" picture of yourself up! You would describe what you looked like, I was 5'1 brown hair with blonde highlights and green eyes. Although I hated when the boys asked how much I weighed..... Anyway I talked to a lot of interesting people in the teen chat room only met a handful... back when meeting strangers was "safe" Oye!
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